Avowal
Kilgore
A Search For Reason (1998)

You must promise you will
Never speak again of this to me
‘Cause I could never look my son
In the eye and tell him
Just exactly what his daddy did
With the souls of all the broken ones
I could never understand exactly why
You had feelings for these
Worthless human flies
And when I looked into your eyes
I felt
I felt broken
Yes, it’s true
I wanted to be like you
And yes, I knew
I could never be like you
And I saw them kneeling there
To their God on his big throne
And I started to see you
Shying away from all the angels
It’ll never be the way it was again
You couldn’t see that I
Treated you just like a son
And if I held others just like you
It’s only because I
Created all men equal
I could never understand exactly why
You would spit into your loving father’s eyes
Oh my father how am I
Supposed to say I’m sorry?
Yes, it’s true
I wanted to be like you
And yes, I knew
I could never be like you
And I saw them kneeling there
To their God on his big throne
And I started to see you
Shying away from all the angels
I forgive you. Don’t you know?
I just don’t care
I could never be the one
Ever be your son
I could never be the father No
(I could never win)